Due Date | Anchors Aweigh

Pages

Due Date

Today's the day. It's crazy how quickly 9 months has flown by. I remember staring at that positive pregnancy test in August and thinking how far off April 21, 2015 seemed. The day arrived quickly, but a lifetime has passed between that joyful day in August and now. 

Today is Taylor Grace Phelps' due date. It was never supposed to look like this. We were supposed to be timing contractions or eating spicy food and walking the ends of the earth just to get labor going. Or maybe we were supposed to be holding a brand new baby because she came early. Whatever was supposed to happen, it wasn't this. 

I've said from the beginning that this is a journey, and I still 100% feel that way. There are easier moments and there are hard moments, and today will probably be filled with a lot of the latter. I miss our daughter being in my belly every day, but this is just another day that we have to keep going and hold onto the truth that she is spending another day of eternity with Jesus. We call it her due date. She calls it Day 150 with her Heavenly Father. 

I've said this many times, but I would never, ever take this journey back. Taking away the pain would mean taking away the joy, and there was so, so much joy. Those 18w5d of carrying her make all of this worth it, no matter how excruciating days like these are. 

He gives and takes away. She was and is the gift that forever changed my life. Sometime's it's hard to see the bigger picture, and on days like today it is especially difficult not to question why we had to go through this, but her short life was divinely planned and divinely purposed. We don't always get what we want in this life, but there are blessings all around us. I got to be a mom, and even on the day of what was supposed to be my daughter's entrance into this world, I am so thankful for that. The joy is worth the pain. 

We love you TGP, and we know you are having a fabulous time celebrating your due date in Heaven!



post signature

14 comments :

Katie said...

Thinking of you and Parker today, Chelsea!

Aishlea said...

Praying for you today!

Amy said...

big ol' hugs to you and parker today. <3

Melzie at Ribbons and Rotor Blades said...

Many hugs to you today. Thinking of you and Parker and sending prayers

Janelle Vannice said...

Praying for your family - especially today! You guys are so strong.

Emily Stewart said...

I love you, sweet friend and am praying for you and Parker today. I wish I could give you a huge hug right now so know that I am giving you one through the interwebs. I know you take comfort, as I do, that Taylor is dancing in heaven with Jesus right now. Love you so much! xoxo

Alyssa Whitt said...

In tears and praying for you today.

Erica said...

Sending you big, big hugs from Kansas today! Your attitude and perspective is incredible, and I know your strength is already encouraging so many moms.

Bailey Kay said...

Hugs to you and Parker!!!

Laura {happily ever} Parker said...

Hugs to you. Taylor is so incredibly lucky to have you as a mom. Wishing you comfort on this difficult day. xoxo

The girls said...

Sending thoughts and prayers to you and Parker today!

Stay Crafty My Friends said...

Prayers and hugs from Tennessee

Traci@TheHallway said...

You guys are so incredibly strong. Thinking about you guys and saying a little extra prayer!

Stephanie said...

Your positivity is such a light. Praying for you on this journey.

LinkWithin

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...